十秒钟 Ten seconds

十秒钟之前，我真的真的有很多很多想说。
五秒钟之前，我想我可以把要说的话简化到100个字了。
三秒钟之前，我想我可以概括到一句话了。
现在，我发现我不想说了。

十秒钟之前会是白描。
五秒钟之前会是叙述。
三秒钟之前会是抽象。
现在是不解释了。

十秒钟之前是最鲜活的感受。
五秒钟之前是淡定。
三秒钟之前是理智。
现在是没有感觉了。

你想遇见几秒钟之前的我？

回忆最后一秒钟之前我想说的话是：
原来我们都是白痴。

……

现在，又过了一个十秒钟了，
我想起了语文老师和思修老师的教导了：
一个说，要养成即时记录的好习惯；
一个说，冷静之后就可以做到沉默是金了。

又又十秒钟之后，
我想起马克思了……


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Ten seconds ago, I really had thousands of word to say.
Five seconds ago, I guessed I could shorten what I wanted to say in 100 letters.
Three seconds ago, I thought I could refine it to a sentence.
Now, I don't feel like talking any more.

Ten seconds ago, it would be discription.
Five seconds ago, it would be narrative.
Three seconds ago, it would be abstract.
Now, I give no explanation.

Ten seconds ago, it was freshest feelings.
Five seconds ago, it was indifference.
Three seconds ago, it was cold sense.
Now, I have no more opinion.

At what time would you like to meet me?

Looking back at what I wanted to say in the last second,
we are all idiots all along

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